Good Monday morning, my loves! I hope you all had a great weekend and are ready to tackle another week. My weekend was busy, which was great because the majority of my weekends this summer have been pretty chill, so I enjoyed the hustle and bustle that took place this weekend. I’ll recap my weekend for you tomorrow, though. Today I’ve decided to talk more about my current relationship with food and feature a guest post written by Jamie Mendell, the founder and Health Coach of Studio Eats.
On Thursday I wrote a post called Health Update and I cannot even begin to thank you enough for all of your sweet comments and love! I’m very proud to be where I am today. After dealing with an ED years ago and then still battling with restrictive behaviours for years later, I am so grateful that my relationship with food (and myself in general) is the healthiest it ever has been.
But now that I’m no longer restrictive with my food intake nor do I abide to a meal plan any longer, I’ve become very free with food. Just as we all should be.
I believe that we should allow ourselves any food at any time (this was one of the lessons Jamie taught me when I took part in her Intuitive Eating Challenge this past March)
When introducing this new lesson into my life, my relationship with food began to repair, but I also began doing things with food that I hadn’t done since my pre ED years.
I would go through moments that I couldn’t stop eating. I would have a handful of salted cashews for a snack, but then that one handful would turn into eating the entire jar of cashews. And then I would move onto the jars of nut butter in my fridge. One scoop of almond butter, one scoop of peanut butter, one scoop of cashew butter, and so it continued. One time I even dove into my stash of DAVIDsTEA and ate all of the brazil nuts out of my tin of Brazillionaire tea.
During these moments I had a feeling come over me that I didn’t recognize. That “gotta have it all” feeling. I just couldn’t stop. So, I approached my old psychologist from years ago and confided in him. As always, he gave me great advice. His words are always so wise.
He told me that since I restricted myself from food for so many years I am beginning to see it as a novelty now that I’m allowing myself to have anything I want whenever I want.
It made perfect sense. Before I was so strict about food and portion sizes, but now that I’m free with food I experienced moments where I couldn’t stop eating.
This is OK. I believe and have been reassured that it is the process of developing a healthy relationship with food. Breaking down the labels of good and bad foods, ignoring portion sizes, and just eating whatever and whenever the heck I please.
Those “gotta have it all” moments where I can’t seem to stop eating all of the nuts until the entire container is empty don’t happen often. I usually find myself in those situations when I’m home alone and bored. I don’t really understand it all as it is quite new to me, so I’ve registered for Jamie Mendel’s webinar about binge eating to learn more. It’s called “Breaking Down The Binge: Why We Do It, How To Stop It, and How To Immediately Recover If It happens Anyway.”
Now, it’s Jamie’s turn to tell you more about this free service she is providing. Please give her a warm welcome!
Hi everyone! Thanks, Meg, for the warm welcome and introduction. I think it is SO important that there are people out there being open and honest about some really difficult topics in the way that Meg is. I’ve noticed that there are so many things we are nervous to talk about and admit to, such as bingeing. But when we bring these “shadows” to the surface, talk about them, and connect with others who are going through the same struggles, we realize that we aren’t alone and that it’s perfectly okay to share these parts of ourselves.
I struggled with bingeing for a long time, and it’s a big part of my past, where I come from, and why I do the kind of work I do today. I was stuck in the diet mentality for so many years, like many of us are. I had good foods and bad foods, I counted calories, I planned out my meals, I read countless healthy living blogs, I tried all of the latest diets, and nothing really worked.
I was always stressed about food and my weight, which inevitably had a really negative impact on my body image and confidence. Having a difficult relationship with food and my body affected many areas of my life. I wasn’t showing up fully with my friends and family, I wasn’t comfortable dating and I was confused about my future and what kind of career would help me “get out of this”. Most importantly, I knew I wasn’t really living my life. I was stuck in a diet and binge cycle and couldn’t get out of it in order to enjoy the life around me.
After years of working on my own issues, I finally understood what it took to stop bingeing. My life is completely different now in every way, and when I look back on where I’ve been, it’s amazing to see the real changes it took me making in order to get to this point. I decided I wanted to devote my work to helping other women get out of the diet and binge cycle, and that’s what I do now full time. Sometimes that means pushing them outside of their comfort zone and motivating them to make significant changes in the way they’re living their lives, but I believe that in many cases, that’s what it takes.
In the webinar tomorrow night, I am going to give you all of the tools and strategies that I have developed over the years to break out of the cycle I was in. I’ve used these same strategies with all of the women I’ve worked with and seen incredible results. It’s about digging deep and doing the real work in order to understand why you’re turning to food and how to stop. You can check out all of the details on the Free Webinar here, and scroll down to the bottom to Register. I’ll leave time at the end for Q&A so that I can get as many of your questions answered as possible.
Tomorrow night we are going to bring this issue of Bingeing to the surface and get honest about it. It’s a word that I used to be ashamed to say, but one thing I’ve learned is that we can’t be ashamed of any part of ourselves. I hope you join us in this vulnerable and honest discussion tomorrow night!
I shared more of my health journey with you today in hopes of helping you. I believe that it is important to be honest about what I am going through and hope to inspire and comfort others along the way <3
Can you relate to my “gotta have it all” moments? Are you interested in signing up for Jamie’s free webinar? Don’t forget it is tomorrow, so register today!
Love you all and see you tomorrow with some updates about my weekend!