Today I will be starting a series of posts called “My Health Journey”. These post will share how I got to where I am today by overcoming an eating disorder, gaining weight, and achieving overall health!
Last Tuesday morning, Eddie and I took a road trip into Regina to do some wedding planning. We were meeting with the wedding coordinator at the venue we have chosen and the priest from the church we will be getting married at. Two exciting meetings called for a nice outfit. In other words, something other than my Lulus! So, I put on a nice top and tried to put on some jeans. Yeah, I tried, but they didn’t fit.
Over the past few months I have definitely noticed I’ve gained weight. I don’t weigh myself, but even without a scale I knew I gained weight. My face is fuller, my clothes are tighter, but I didn’t realize that I actually outgrew my jeans until last Tuesday! Partly because all I ever wear is Lulus…
What an awesome feeling. Not being able to zip up my jeans. My Mom, Dad, Eddie, and I all had a mini celebration and then I did what I usually do – I put on my Lulus.
The whole growing out of my jeans thing made me really proud and happy. I felt really good all day. Confident and beaming. I was on cloud 9.
And then I thought to myself, I should feel this way all of the time. Not just when I notice huge successes such as growing out of my jeans. I should feel proud of myself all of the time.
I’ve been through a lot. I’ve overcome an eating disorder and regained my health. That’s something to be really proud of on a daily basis. But, since we are our own worst critics, it’s often hard to see all of our hard work, successes, and accomplishments when we look in the mirror and critique ourselves.
I often look in the mirror and think “I wish my legs were bigger” or “Why aren’t my biceps growing!?”, so last week instead of critiquing myself I thought I’d prove to myself that I have come very far and remind myself that I should be proud of myself of where I am now.
So, I found an old picture of myself to show myself that I actually have made great gains in my health and that I should be very proud of myself on a daily basis.
The picture on the left is a picture of myself two years ago and the picture on the right was taken of myself last Monday.
When I first saw these two pictures side by side I started to cry. I started to cry for so many different reasons. I started to cry because I was so proud of myself, but also because I was so sad for the girl I saw in the picture two years ago.
There’s a huge difference between the two pictures, yet I didn’t really know I made such huge progress until I compared myself to myself two years ago.
I’m writing this post for two reasons:
1) I want you to be proud of yourself right now. You don’t have to make a big accomplishment in a single moment. It could take a long time. Two years in my case. But just remember to always be proud of yourself, how far you’ve come, and all the good you’ve done for yourself throughout your journey.
2) To help others. When I first shared my comparison photo on Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter last week, I was doing so to give myself a high five, but then someone asked me if my workouts changed between the two pictures. Then that got me thinking…
How did I really get to where I am today?
Well, I can tell you one thing. It wasn’t just one thing that got me to where I am today. Many factors come into play. And I will be sharing all of them with you throughout the “My Health Journey” series
I hope you’re as excited as I am!
PS if you have a high five to share with me this week please email it to me at firstname.lastname@example.org